Chapter 3:Single mom

Life has been very different since the first day I brought Abbie home.  I have learned to manage taking care of her and myself quite well.  I registered as self employed painter since it is my true passion and I get quite a lot of money for my paintings now.  It is still hard to believe something I painted is up on someone's wall.  Abbie is growing up fast and it seems like yesterday I brought her home from the hospital.  Ethan only came by once to see her and that was when she was about 2 weeks old.  He hasn't had anything to do with her since.  I feel sad for her that she will never have a father daughter relationship that she deserves.  In a way I am glad because I can be selfish and keep her all to myself.  

Before I knew it Abbie was a year old. We had a small birthday party just me and her. I can't believe she is a toddler and into everything let me tell you!!!  I was able to get her some toys and a toy chest at a consignment shop  for her birthday and she just loved them. She had no clue they were used. You couldn't even tell they looked practically brand new. 

In my spare time when I am not taking care of Abbie, or painting it seems like I sleep. I used to really enjoy gardening but who has time to keep up with that. Sometimes being a single mom can be hard but it has its perks. Months go by and I finally get Abbie potty trained man was that hard. It seems like it would be easier to do anything else then to get her to use the "big girl potty."  None the less we were able to do it she now uses the potty well and pull ups you never know!!!  

A few weeks go by and I decide its time to teach her to walk and talk. I figured we could start with walking then talking.  Believe it or not she mastered both learning how to walk and talk in no time.  This being a mommy thing is working out pretty good even if I do it by myself. 

I don't have any hard feelings towads Ethan anymore I figure its his loss.  If he wanted to be part of our lives he would be.  I try not to focus on the bad parts of my life all I can do is move on and do the best for Abbie and I.  

Its been a long few years but I've managed to make quite the little home for Abbie and I.  Its nothing grand but I've worked hard and giving her a great place to live with any luxaries I can afford.  My birthday came and went so I decided it was time for a change.  What kind of change you ask???A new hairstyle to go with a cooler older me.  I really like it and I feel really good about myself. 

Lord I do npt know where the time goes by.  Abbie's birthday is her already and my little girl is growing up.  She starts school in a couple of days. Its crazy to think what my life would have been like if I didn't decide to move away from home.  Speaking of home my parents are talking to me again and I guess I am no longer dead to them.  You could probably think Abbie for that.  Its nice to see them and for them to be apart of our lives. They came in for her birthday and we had cake.

After her party my parents had to leave since its a long trip back home so I could understand.   I am just glad they were able to come.  Later on that day Abbie and I went to the park and played on the swings just the two of us.  

Chapter 2: Love what good is it???

My life lately seems like an up and down roller coaster.  Just when I think things are going good I meet a guy.  His name is Ethan Scott we seemed to have really hit it off. For the past few months we have been going on dates and hanging out. I was having such a great time until the night I fell in love with him. I confessed my love for him and he admitted he enjoyed spending time with me too.  However, he  wasn't sure if he was ready for a serious relationship so he figured  we should take it slow and see where it goes. I was game for that after all I did say I love him.

About a week later I find out that was just a line to get a little action. I was so overwhelmed with the love I felt for him that I was blind.  I kept waiting for him to ask me to be his girlfriend.   Well he never asked. The following day I found out I was pregnant. Oh my, here I am trying to make something of myself and I go get myself knocked up by the first guy that looks my way.  I do not really even have a steady job I just get income from doing odd jobs like my painting, selling my fruit from my gardens and hacking computers. Well I was hacking until I fried my computer. I can't afford a new one now with a baby coming.

Speaking of baby I finally told Ethan about the baby and he was excited for me like he didn't have any part in this. Good luck he says. So I yell at him, "What about me, what about the baby???" "Aren't you going to be there for us????" Well he left so that was my answer. 

A few more months go by and I scrounge up some money and do a little remodel to prepare for the baby. I even got a crib that was really expensive but I couldn't resist.  Days, weeks and the last few months go by and before I know it I'm in labor all by myself. I am so scared to take care of this baby with no help from Ethan or no other family support.   

I would like to introduce you to Abbie. The most precious beautiful baby in the world. I forgot all about my troubles when I saw her sweet face. I will take care of her and try to give her the best life I can give. I now can not imagine life without her in it.

Chapter 1: And I made this decision because???

So I was able to find some decent land in the new town of Sunset Valley, Ca. It was really expensive and pretty much left me broke.  Never knowing what it was like to be broke at first I didn't make that big deal of it until I started spending what I had left. I needed some necessities you know?? For instance, a bed, shower you get the point.  After my quick realization that I would need to get a job my mood dropped slightly but none the less I got a newspaper that day and looked through the classify ads. 

Just my luck there wasn't anything in the ads that I was qualified for.  I was a little discouraged so I decided to paint.  Buying an easel so I could paint was really my only indulgence.  It really puts me in a good state of mind.  I also like to do sculptures, and eventually would like to own my own gallery to show my work. Those are dreams that may not happen for a while but I am rather determined and will get there one day. 

A week goes by and everyday that week I check the classified ads and finally the last day of the week it pays off there is a Science job that I think hmm maybe I can do that at least for now.  So I go and apply. To my luck they were really needing someone so they did an on spot interview.  I got the job which is pretty exciting because I am down to $100 dollars.  I start the following day I am pretty excited and can not wait to start doing something with my life.  Maybe after I get my career going I might be able to meet a guy and go on a few dates but that isn't a priority at the moment.

This job sucks, I am no good at it no matter how hard I try to do better I just don't get any better. I plan on giving it a few days before I quit. I shouldn't quit but its making me so unhappy.  I think I would rather flip burgers then go one more day here! So its final I will quit first thing in the morning. In the mean time I will paint. 

I am back to where I was before I got that stupid job.  No money and no job is starting to make this leaving home idea of mine feel like a bad idea.  At least at home I had my family, money and no worry about having to get a job just so I can pay bills, buy stuff I want and need. Oh and not to mention at home I had a maid and a butler now I have to do it myself. That part isn't so bad seeing how I don't own much of anything.  Days like this make it hard to not just pack up and go home.  I hope I can make it through the next days, weeks maybe even months.

Prologue:The Story of The Hamilton's

Hi my name is Iris, Iris Hamilton.  I come from a very selfish, wealthy family. Let me tell you a little about my family and myself.  My family has been extremely wealthy for generations now and because of that they lost touch with reality and the simple things.  I am not like my family, I do not mind being rich but who doesn't right??  However, I've been able to see past money and my family does not understand that and some choices I have made.  After I graduated high school I decided that life had to be more then just money.  I am not interested in being a lawyer or a doctor like everyone else in my family.  So, I have decided to leave my family and start a new life far away from them.  A decision they will never understand this is the story of my life and hopefully generations after me.